放假的开始不是一件很好的事
完全找不到你也是一件让我好担心的事,你到底去哪里了 :(
最近我开始用我妈的ipad
Ipad的微薄有北京的天气预报
每天不是暴雪预警就是道路结冰
人家可担心下的, 就发个信息给他看下他在干啥咯
但是等信息就从星期五那天等到今天
这几天连人人微薄都没有任何消息
担心了很多天
今天终于收到他信息了, 他说昨晚电话没电,人在外面现在才看到
靠! 我等了几天了,你说昨晚没电,那前几天的信息你怎么也没回呢,
担心到要哭了,看到你那封信息后心才安定下来,
也许是我太在乎的关系才会让自己那么累, 我太感情用事了
为什么每次我都控制不了我自己的情绪?
为什么我就不能好好的过自己的生活反而每天让自己自讨没趣?
烦啊...也许这就是我,
还是尝试不想了。
希望这段爱情能够长久啦
相信他还是在乎这段感情的
也许他只是忙着和朋友玩罢了
跟之前一段一样, 没有网络罢了, 没有空罢了, 只是一个放假罢了。
我真的觉得我真的真的很幸福
这几天我本来以为我无法看到他
结果我们昨天考完试
我懒得复习,就陪他去办一点事情
办好了后他说他累了,就去我家睡了一下,
在家里我们一起看非常了得
一起复习明天和后天考试的东西
之后我们就聊天。
你问我有没有写日记的习惯,
我说这个就是我的日记,
他叫我开给他看,
他说他想知道我在想什么,
他看的时候我不想目视他, 因为这个里面都是我心里面不敢说的话。
他看过后就说, 以后有什么事可以跟他说, 抱着我叫我不要憋在心里。
我快要哭了,
因为以前的那个让我觉得没有被在乎。
子昊真的让我觉得我真的被爱被在乎。我感觉真的找到了依靠。
我觉得我再也找不到比他更好的男生了。
这句话的的确确融化了我孤单的心。
很满足很满足。
感谢主赐给我这个他 :)
Moved to cousin's house! Say bye bye to my old room =( quite miss it coz l have lived in there for 6 months. My cousin's house is quite far away from my school. I have to walk for 20 mins to school ahhh!!! Oh well, it's time for me to do some exercise =P
Ice skating day with foundation mentoring club. Fall down n times! My butt and hands hurt =(
Everyday enjoy simple life, day by day week by week...lonely in melbourne...nobody care abt me in here. Lonely life...study, revision in library, home, play, sleep. Time passed very fast but...l wish l have someone can care abt me in here. Before mummy came to melb l was so emo and lonely. Nobody care abt my feeling and after school was revision and back home play games and sleep. I wish l have someone can care abt me in here. I wish my bf is here with me. Long distance relationship really killing me. I cant feel that l have a bf in my real life. Since he back to sibu l cant contact with him coz he didnt open his fb till l forgt abt he is my bf now. I dunno why was l thinking like this but that is truth. I cant feel like l have a bf now. When it was cold day l wish there is a hand hold my hands to warm up my hands especially in winter time. I wish there is someone l can sms to in melb like my bf did in sibu. I cant feel that feeling. I hate long distance relationship. He didnt contact with me for a long time till l forgt abt him now. Grrrr...that's my feeling now and l dun have mood to update my blog. That things really kill me for a really long time. How can l solve this question? Who can tell me is this relationship last longer as l think as he didnt contact me and l dunno his feeling now? He still like me? He didnt tell me before he like me and how can l prove that whether he like me or not? I wish l can hear something like 'l miss u' from him to let me know that this relationship still running, not resting. Plssss...l beg u! Tell me...
My mid term test results were out last few days. Wow! It was really W-O-W!!! My expectation for this test was just only a 'pass' for all of my subjects. I really want to thank God that the result that l got for this exam was really really W-O-W!! Even better than my primary school result. My Bio and Chem gt the highest mark in class which is 96% and 89% My pure math was 90% while my general math was 98% Isnt it really make me wow? Really really make me wow!!!! Btw, Thanks God for helping me in test. =)
Yesterday l joined bersih 3.0 at Federation Square with Shinn Shyan and Samo. I saw many ppl wear yellow shirt with bersih 3.0 on it. First time saw many malaysian support this campaign. 1250 ppl joined bersih in Melb which is the largest group in the world beside Malaysia. Kl gt 250000 ppl joined!! Over 85 place organized this campaign on the same day! There were some talk and shout bersih bersih. After all the events finish we sang Negaraku. I really forgt how to sing! == as a malaysian we should support bersih to get a clean and fair election! Ec must resign! Bersih bersih!! ><
I'm 18 years old now! I can join any activity without my guardian's permission. And now l didnt need a guardian!! My first activity that l wanna join is BLOOD DONATION! I cant believe that l have this courage to join because l hate injection! It is pain and l know it! This is my first time join blood donation. I told my mum that l wanna join it. She agreed!! Yeapie!! I know l scare but blood donation is a good activity that will help a lot of ppl. When l watch On Call 36 Hours, l saw that they need a lot of blood during the surgery but sometimes they didnt have enough blood to transfer into the injured person n he died. I wish l can help them but l dunno my blood is good to help ppl or not. Hmmm...l wish so.
Today after church l went shopping myself at DFO South Wharf. I walked from Flinders Street Station to South Wharf. My google map wasnt function! I dunno my real location n thr location of South Wharf. I just know that South Wharf is beside Yarra River so l just walk along the riverside. I know l was really crazy but finally l can find my way to there lol. I walked around for 2 hours but l bought nothing lol. Then l met up with Joyce to DFO Southern Cross. I bought a high heel from Rubi. My shoes already so so so dirty and broke. After that l went to Jay Jay at Melb Central to buy 2 pairs of trousers. I really really like it!! XD Birthday present for myself =)
Today l have gathering with my friends, Evan Josie Caroline Emma and Vincent! They came to my house to cookl lunch. Last night l slept at Joyce's house n went back home at 9.30am. Suddenly Josie sms me that she will be late n asked me to pick Evan and Emma at train station at 10am. Omg! It's almost the time! I quickly changed my clothes n ran to Melb Central train station. Finally l found them n pick them up to my place. Josie n Caroline reached my place at 11am. Raining all day long. Luckily we didnt go to the beach phewww...We started preparing the ingredients. I prepared steam fish for today gathering. Evan prepared Hong Shao Rou. Josie prepared broccoli while Caroline prepared salad. One person start to cook while others play poker when waiting for them to cook. So high when we were playing on that game. After 2 hours preparing, we put our dishes on floor and sat around them have our lunch. Evan's dish was too delicious! We finish his dish in 10 minutes lol. After washing all the dish it was already 3.30pm. We planned to prepare dinner too! Evan cooked the same dish n Caroline Josie and me prepared cheese mashed potato. Evan didnt have his dinner after he prepared all coz he need to back home. We were so tired after whole day cooking and playing poker. Caroline Josie and Vincent fall asleep when l was cleaning my kitchen. Vincent snore too loud till Caroline woke up after few minutes sleeping lol. They left at 8.30pm. Nice public holiday without computer and drama =)
Finally l'm officially 18!
*Birthday morning*
2.30am- bibobibobibo...Unilodge fire alarm rang!!! I thought the sound is came from the nearby carpark. But when l listened carefully, the sound came from outside my room?! I went outside my room, some of the residents went down. Some smoke came from hostel downstairs. Hmmm...till now l still what happened. I back to my bed and continue my beauty sleep lol. I dunno what am l thinking that time lol?!?! Why am l so pro? If there was a fire then how? I m so...dunno how to say myself ==
In the morning, l went to school as usual. It seems like everything is the same, study n chat with friends during recess time. Nobody knew that today is my birthday. Ok alright, l m not sad coz l m not alone coz tonight l will celebrate with Joyce =) During recess time, we talked abt the weather on this few days. Actually tmrw we r going to have bbq at Brighton beach but the weather report state that it will going to rain. So we canceled it aww...but we planned to have a cooking gathering at my place tmrw! Each one of us cook one dish and share it. That's cool although we didnt have picnic at beach. After class Josie, Evan n I went to buy some ingredients for gathering tmrw. After that we went to my place to put all the things into my fridge n they went back home.
At night, l met Joyce at her place n went to Laksa King by train. We used google map to find the way to there. We kept going to the wrong way and tried to find the direction. Finally we reached! I ordered combination curry laksa. So delicious OMG! It almost the same taste as Sibu laksa! I love it yummyyyy!!! After dinner we went to have a walk at GPO. We tried to take picture but there r so many ppl walking around. So lan ming =X But thanks Joyce. I really enjoyed the time with u. I thought l will be very alone but l gt you. I love u Joyce!! We went to have a drink at Easy Cafe. The weather was so so so cold! My legs were freezing. We back to Joyce house at 9pm. We looked at the picture we took last few years. I'm really a nerd during 2008 n Joyce kept laughing at my nerd face XD l miss those days with all babes. We planned many birthday party n hang out together. Looking at those photos. It was really a memorable memory. We played, took picture n chit chatting...happy memory with u guys. Joyce said that she wants to go to toilet for a while. After a few minutes she brought a plate of macaron 'HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY'. She turned her computer to me. Omg omg omg!!! All babes were on9 n sang birthday song to me!! I was really surprise when l saw all of them on skype! Jacq, Carey, Bing, Evelyn, Vivian...all of them were on skype omg omg omg!! Really happy till dunno want to say what on that time T.T l m not alone this year in Melb. Although we cannot celebrate together but skype can. Skype helped me to communicate with all my babes n family. Btw l was really really shocked and surprise to see u all n love u Joyce for giving me such a great 18th birthday. Dunno how to express my feeling now. T.T love u all Babes. I wish l can see u all n give a big great hug to u all! ♥
Long time no update my bloggie! I just finish my exams this Friday. I dunno why l was so stress in this exams. This exams made my face full of pimplesss!!! Omg l need to do a lot of facial treatment after this exams lol. The whole bio test paper were almost the same as past years exams. Luckily l have studied it n know how to do but some of the question like essential and non essential amino acid, l cant remember how to answer coz l revised only one time before the test lol. My bio teacher was so lazy to do a new set of exams paper. ==
Back to life, my birthday is coming soon n l m so excited now. Yeapieee! But my birthday wish is...l wish that l wont celebrate my 18th birthday alone in Melb T.T that is my only wish in this birthday.
Today is church day. =) After l prepared myself to church, it almost 8.00am. Everytime l have to use 10 minutes to reach train station (l walk so slow ==). Elizabeth street closed n l need to use more time to reach train station lol. This time l ran to train station coz l came out late ==. Luckily it still left 3 minutes to go phewww... After church l went to Glenferrie festival with Shinn Shyan =) so many ppl at there n we saw two handsome ah mo boy playing tennis with littke kids. That two handsome boys were too handsome till we didnt want to left that place hehehe =P After that we went to Pizza Hut to have lunch. $5 for one drink n one pizza yummyyyyy!! Chatting and sharing stories with Shinn Shyan whole afternoon. I enjoy the time with her coz l have found a friend that can share secret and stress to each other. Thanks God l found a such friend in Melb =)
Short update:
OMG! Mid term test is coming! Time flies. 2nd month in Melbourne. I dun like Melbourne weather. 1 week hot and 1 week cold. I miss malaysia weather *sob sob*
This few days were really busy in study because of the mid term test. Busy doing pass year question and practice question. Most of my time is at library study with my friends. Today l bought all my food for next week coz l m not going to have time to do so. Tmrw l have to do my oral presentation. I chose a boring topic "how to get good result in exams". Really really boring but easy topic. I have finish prepared my draft. So nervous now. I wish l can skip that oral presentation XD. I commit all my works into God's hands. =)
My relationship with Boon back to normal. He back to "normal" again after l forgave him. Lol!!! Omg. He still like that. We have nothing to talk again? I know u r now busy in preparing ur oral presentation. After u finish ur oral pls find me then =( l wish u can find me urself. U can just say hi to me in FB. I will appreciate it. I know l m annoying =P
Time flies. My holiday finish. All well, it's time for me to fight for the coming exams. *HOLIDAY MOOD OFF* l regret that l had bad bad mood during the whole holidays. My decision is back to my bf and continue my long distance relationship. Although it is very tough but l wish this is the right decision. Now l dun want to make him angry and trouble him in his study. He just finish his assignment and have his oral presentation abt international law next tuesday. As a gf l can understand his situation now. He start finding me by himself. I hope that he will continue like this. =)
Back to topic. I just came back from camp yesterday. This camp was AWEASOME! The pastor in charge was from Sibu. I like his talk because he likes to tell jokes that made the audience laugh non-stop and very interesting. His speech topic is about the challenge in world which is sex, power and money (SPM). I had same room with Shinn Shyan and church teacher Wendy. First day to camp we had bible quiz. I have totally forgot about the quiz and l didnt read it before l went to camp lol. But luckily my group partner was very smart in bible so we can answered it. Pheww...Second day we had station games. Song guessing, shaving game, quiz, drink milk by using baby milk bottle competition...We enjoyed ourself in games especially in body part games. We need to draw a paper on floor from station master and follow the instruction on the paper. Unluckily l got a 'head' and my partner got 'shoulder'. I knocked my nose on her shoulder. *Reindeer's nose* Omg!! So painful wuwuwu...T.T After that we played frisbee. This was my second time playing frisbee and they have a frisbee competition. I am in group with Ah Pao, Vincent, Sally and SK. I tried to defend and catch the frisbee. Quite fun and enjoy in game but we dun have enough time to play with. =( oh ya! The meals inside the camp was so delicious especially NASI LEMAK! Awww...l miss nasi lemak so much! I love sambal!! =P Thanks Shi Mu for cooking such a nice meal for all the camp =) Camp duration was quite short and l havnt start enjoy it! =( l miss the time in camp...
Thanks Leslie, Shinn Shyan, Wei Ling and Mandy for giving me advise in my relationship. Boy cannot focus on 2 different thing in one time. Maybe he cannot focus on my blablabla...l will do my best in my relationship. =)
